Angel from "City of Angels"

 Angel

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

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We all go through life with our ups and downs. 

We all wish we could go back and change things. 

We all want things to turn out a certain way. 

We all hope to find the things that make us happy. 

Yet no matter how happy we become, there will always be this one part we find disappointment in. 

We try and try and try...to satisfy the ones around us...and long for that moment of peace. 

When we find it, we struggle to hold on to it.

We become more impatient and the cycle goes on and on and on...

The problem is with trying to choose between satisfying youself or the others

You end up sacrificing for the others and give them excuses and try to make sense of things

But NO there aren't any answers for those Q's in your head that will help you find your sane self again.

So we wish for that angel.

The one in our head.

Who will take our pain away

To make us forget.

Why were we born?

I believe everyone relates to to this powerful song, which is why I'm sharing it with you. Just to let you know that your not alone...we are  on the same boat... that will sink one day.

I would share my own version of this, but I don't know how to do that with tracks!I  forgot to add that it's my fave song of all time!

Life is Change..

In a few months life is going to change for me drastically..hopefully it will be greater than I expect..am I nervous? of course...but I think to take such a step is a must..we all need to do things in life that are challenging otherwise there isn't a point in living...I have the kind of personality where I am always on the move..I cannot..I REPEAT..I CANNOT stand sitting at home and having nothing else to do..I wonder each day how people do this...Gone shopping CHECK...Ate my heart out CHECK...Spent hours talking on the phone CHECK....what else is there to do?

I know I've said this before but Kuwait can be boring sometimes and I guess the weather doesn't help..

There are NO JOBS here...especially with my major...it's getting tougher and tougher in Kuwait...makes me dream of wanting to escape...then again I know it won't be that easy living outside either...honestly...I respect the fact that in, say for example, the UK people work in a certain system...here...we have people who are too lazy to do their mundane job properly...thus we all suffer doing useless paper work that we didn't need to do in the first place if the people did their job...let not forget the unfairness of vitamin "W"...it seems that the only way to get a job is by "pulling some strings" or all of them!!...I know some people who have graduated after me who are now working...anyways I'm not complaining...I like to think of these months as a way to prepare me for the difficult life I'm about to begin...a7asiskum inny badish 7arb :P:P

I've realised that with time I started getting used to my life the way it is..everytime I complain I remember all my blessings then I shut up...it's normal to think like this (I think)...ironically I've become more patient and calm...

Let's see...running through my memory I have to say the past 10 years I've met sooooooo many people...but not many stuck...which is why I believe LIFE=CHANGE I accept this because I believe everything happens for the best..I morn for a while and eventually I move on...the memories are there...and each person left a part of themselves with me...which is why we are made of peices of a puzzle..each person we meet leaves a piece with us...

I don't think I hate anyone...we've all gotten hurt but I don't hold grudes...life is way too short...

So...this is me rambling about my thoughts which I haven't done for a long time!!

I don't even think anyone wud read this!! :P

I'll continue this later...you will understand everything soon ;)

Enjoy!

Staying up!

I'm addicted to staying up all night...I have to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep
Tomorrow....(dun dun duuuuuuuu) maybe my life style will change!
Getting ready for bed :D

Wish me luck!

New List!

Things I learned at my work:

1. Standing for hours without feeling pain
2. Folding using papers
3. Adding alarm tags to clothing
4. Using the computer system for checking and calculating numerous details
5. Greeting strangers
6. Steaming (very new to me)
7. Both checking and organizing the stock room plus front store

That's what I remember so far..I'll include more later...

I luv the musalsal "Al Hadama" but I hate BADER I wish he dies!

10 more hours to go...

I haven't been going to work for the past 4 days...there is so much going on! I'm already falling behind in my reading for one of my classes...actually two of my classes!!..:P... I don't eat properly, I don't sleep much, and I'm always worried about getting something done.

Just wanted to updated you in my boring life!

20 more hours to go...

At work again..I decided I needed to take the day off yesterday!
I slept walked last night...:/ thats the third time!

what the HELL!

Don't you people have HOMES!...There are so many Kuwaities here...the place is so NOISY! ahhhh...people are shouting from the top floor to the bottom..there are numerous maids everywhere..9ij 9ij nas fathyeeeeeen!!! Just cuz it's liberation day...GOD when will this society learn?

I've been here since 1pm :/....help :P

hmmm

What I do at work:

1) Photocopy
2) Scan
3) Elaminate
4) Talk to real human beings
5) Eat mentos
6) Browse the net
7) Finish my work
8) Stare at people
9)Walk around
10) Complain

I just did my homeworks here...It's 9pm...I wanna go home!! We started uni already...I just wanna begin the work for that...I'm fourth year now (suppose to be a grad..but im not even close:P) I haven't even bothered to get my books...hehe

See u soooooooooooon

P.S. Anyone know any good modern novels to read?

50 more hours to go...

Happy Valentines Day...9ij mako shughil :P

2 Days of Disaster

1st Day at work

My trainer left me for a while and a guest came...

G1: Hi...how are you?
SD: I'm fine...how can I help you?
G1: Can you mail this for me?
SD: I'm not sure
G1: What?
SD: I'm a trainee could you please wait for college
G1: Huh? The stamps are in that cabnet
SD: I'm new here...It's my first day please take a seat and my college will be back in 5 mins...If you don't have anything to do..
G1: Sure...5 min...
I'm trying not to make too much convo...cuz we were told not to
G1: so ............ Where are you from?
SD: umm Kuwait
G1: You've lived here all your life?
SD: Kind of...( I try to contune reading pretending to be busy and wishing she will be back)

That was a disaster

2nd Day

It seems like everytime they leave me a lone something happens!!

Phone rings "RING RING"

SD: good afternoon B-centre SweetD speaking how can I help you?
Operater: yes who is this?
SD: I'm sweetD
O: Where is L?
SD: she's not here but would you like me to take a msg
O: there is someone on the line who wants *^*%(&^$ (seriously I had no idea what she said)
SD: What?
O: I have a person who wants to speak to ^(&^$(&^^
SD: sorry is that one of the business rooms?
O: No...Can I transfer him to you and you speak to him?
SD: Can't you call back?
O: no, he's waiting do you want to talk to him?
SD: umm can you tell him to call back?
O: no hes on the line waiting
SD: Ummm wait for L
O: okay fine

ahhhh :S...

Person comes

G2: Hi how you doing? Can I ask if there is ( I blanked out and had no idea what he was saying)
SD: I'm not sure but if you can have a seat my college will come and she will tell you
G2: 5 mins...alright...so SweetD...is that how they say your name?
SD: yeah...
G2: you say it for me?
SD: SweetD?
G2: where you from?
SD: Kuwait
G2: yeah...thats why your so good-looking
SD: (thinking what the heck!! Blush) Thank you
G2: So can I use the internet
SD: sure..but are you staying here?
G2: No
SD: we charge 1KD for 20 mins
G2 1KD? (opens money and throws 1KD on the table)

Trainer L came back....7ada ashwa!!...damnnnn scarey :/

L: is there a problem sir?
G2: yeah we have alot of problems
SD: no no I didn't do anything :/

Work...

I started work today..well not yet...tommorrow I officially start...:/...ahhhh I hate waking up early!!...But I'm sure it will be more fun than sitting at home :P...

Wish me luck

HeckTic Week

This week began with a tragic event...my bestfriend had a terrible car accident..Thank God she is safe now (Al7amdullah), my heart stopped when I heard the news and I immeditatly rushed to the hospital...This is something I hope no one else faces..Get better Zooozoow:P we need to go GiZzIng :P just kidding...but serioulsy 9ij Allah sitar...

I'm working on my new project..I found some amazing people who are supporting me all the way...

I had no idea we had a hoilday coming up, since most of the time Ive always got reading and exams going on!

Yesterday was VERY VERY busy!! I had a job interview and my class ends at 4:45pm I made it on time...I think I got accepted...but let's wait..we'll tell u more about that later...(it's a part time job)

So what is there to do this hoilday? I need to relax but honestly there is no time at ALL!!..Ahhhhh less than a month and we finish this semester...;)

Goodluck everyone with ur exams to those who study and those who don't study :P

New years is nearly coming up...will I make new year resolutions?...hmmm I guess I'll think about that...

Ill keep u updated with my life

3eedkum Embarek

Peace :*

Where the hell am I??

I haven't been in the mood to blog lately. I feel like my life isn't that interesting ( as if it was before). Well to keep you updated I finished my summer job...I got my money yesterday Woohooo...feels weird my first "ma3ash"...It felt good..I like the new experience and learned a lot from working. One thing is it doesn't matter how much effort you put into your work you'll not be liked more or get more praise...At first I was spending around 8 hours at work...then I cut it short and started to stay about 5 hours sometimes even 4!...:P I realised the more that I stayed there the more I got told off...Working taught me that life will always be unfair :P and that studying is much more fun!...although we don't get paid for it...

Things I'm doing this holiday:

Redecorating my room...
Sleeping...
Eating...:/ Gaining weight...
Gizzing...

What do you think of the colour beige with pink??...

Good news I didn't tell you guys..I finally got my new digital piano..not the one I was hoping but it will do...it's so much fun!..All I need now is the USB to connect and download my stuff to share it with the WORLD!!

Today I'm going out to do some earns...care to join?

Buzy being BORED

I'm so busy with my job...I'm always tired..and there is always something I have to do..there is no time for relaxing and enjoying life as it is...apart from that...I'm doing alright...I just can't wait till I change...I really miss being interesting..

part 3: At work

BORING WORK!! AHHHH...How do you guys keep up with such a routine life??....

Part Two: At Work

This is the 2nd time I used my break to post:P...hehe...weee3 their comps r sooo OLD..:P shakhbarey:P...ilmuhim...today ri7t il jam3a to do some paper work...I saw my friends and it was so weird cuz they haven't seen me for more than 6 weeks:P to them i looked different!..I didn't tell u guys;) I cut my hair and now i look super cute:P loool JK...well It's a new look:)....anwyays isn't it weird to see people you haven't seen in a long time...and the funny thing is you never miss someone untill u see them ...then u realise u miss them:P...I arrived at work late..but I did take permission:P..then they gave me the "investigation"****(nesate what it is..when they question you:P like the FBI...when i remember i will post the word:P)...sorry ana emgafla! Anyways i was like yeah jam3a work and stuff...:P...hehe

So mabagi shay...life has it's ups and downs...wonder what life will give me:P...Guess we'll have to sit and waitttt!! ahhhhh i wanna be patient


****Im so smart...ri7t 3ala google and i typed "def:Criminal questioning" 6ali3-->interogation ;)
3ijabt nafsey:P...LOOOOL read the definiton for it: systematic effort to procure information by direct questioning of a person under the control of the questioner.

Taking a break...

This is the first time I post from work:P I'm taking a break....I'm surprised u guys still remember me;) hehe
I really miss my laptop:(...I need to check if they are done with it...I'm betting they haven't yet...:( ahhhhhhhhh....I miss u guys...

Miss me?

:(..still no laptop!..I hope it finishes by next week...I've already started work..its tiring but GREAT! couldn't ask for any better ;););)...Miss blogging and I'm SO SORRY I'm replying late!:)

I'll update u soon though....

First meeting

Tommorrow is the first meeting for my summer job...

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UPDATED:

The meeting was GREAT! The people introduced us to the place..and how things work...we got a TOUR!..woooweeey..I'm so excited about starting this job..in which i will reveal later
:{) Looks like he has a mustache!...anyways..!!...yeah It's no big deal:P..hehe!:) yeayyyyyyy :> lets hope i dont get told off :P

* I used these colours to make it seem more formal:P...and important:P aham shay adry!:)

Counting Down!

I'm exited about this summer... finally taking a break from studying...still going to work though:P..but I hope that would be a change!!!

No time for bloggin..nothing interesting in my life...