30 September 2005

How was this weekk...

It's gotten so much better than before..i feel good...feel alive (althought right now i wanna sleep)....and happy...i really hope it lasts....good things come ot those who wait and i think ive been waitin for awhile!...hehe i think its my turn now...this week has been very busy with the starting uni and all...the hws r never ending...and its cool...i like my subjects....leanring is good...everytime i read more the more i feel smart...and the smarter i will be inshalah:).....i encourage people to read and learn as much as they can even if its about music:)..anything u r intrested in....

25 September 2005


today is a good day (al7amdullah)...we were going round the car places to see cars and then we reached VW ....so we wanted to see the beetle and stuff and the women says we have to go outside...so we waited for it....then went outside and there bashar ilsa6y was standing...it was soooo coooool!!....first ana maistaw3bt....bas ba3dain,,,i wanted to say hi so the women who worked there said come yallah so i went and talked to him (that was about 7;45pm....25/9/05) he was soooooooooooooo sweeet really very nice....i asked forhis autogragh and he was soo shyyyyyyyyyy ye7lala!!! he made my dayyyyyyyyyy Thanx bashar even though i know u wont ever read this....he really doesnt know how happy i am right now!

23 September 2005

Been busy been busy gett depressed....

hmmm,....where shall i start...first i didnt get time and had no comp i cud log on from...next time i will from uni so i can update this blog....hmmm im not feeling so good i dotn know its been like this for maybe 2 weeks...i keep feeling sad and annoyed and this S***....:(....just wish i cud understand these feelings and stuff....

16 September 2005

The big question...

As i lay sleeping mostly everynight...i lay awake thinking and starngely yesterday i was thinking about things i wanted the person i wud spend the rest of my life with to have..as in the qualties...i know all girls or women think about this topic even though some say they just not intrested but it is important to them....some things came up in my mind...which i wanted to share...

1)I need someone who will be understanding
I'm a very veryyyy different person, i know most people say that about themselves bu with me its really different...im very emotional and sooo damn moody..i hate myself at times....

2)I want someone who is willing to be open and honest (whats the point of having a heart if ur not using it)
Most people want this quality but sadly alot of people dont relise that they just arent beeing told the truth...i know people lie because i do it myself...but at least i need someone to try be as honest with me as possible...with out that i dont think i can build a good foundation for a good family

3)I need someone who trusts me
I'm going to be honest....its hard to trust someone with your whole soul but face it things do go wrong BUT...(heres the big but)..u need someone to trust u ...well at least trust u so u can tell the person that something did go wrong...i try my best to be honest and not keep things away from people ...which i find important..

4)Personallty is very important to me
Looks yeah important but not as much as who the person is...i need to be able to comunicate with the person and not feel like they are not intelligent enough to just LISTEN....all i can say is if u listen to me (without trying to give me adivise) then im fine with it....and i hate beign ignored!

5) Caring person
I know i know....not that original but hey everyone needs someone who will give them enough attention! eh!..:)

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6) BE resposible
I don't believe that men should not ask the women for help for financial reason i, however, think the woman can insist in helping..otehrwise GURL ull be having a hard life paying his bills;)....

7) Be easy to talk to
I hate, i repeat HATE men who show off..it sickins me...dont like men who think they r HOT or think too much of themseleves and spends as much time as u do getting chnaged or chnaging his hair style every few days....dude chill a good hair cut can do alot.....sometimes he can try but not constintly..oh about this point i dont want him to blab about himself...so unattraive... the biggest turn off ive had is having a guy talk more than u do...ewww just makes me hurl...plus makes me wanna kill myself....

8) A bossy 2 shoes
DUDE back off u do what u want i do what i want ..but there r limits..and i think i can make clear what i mean about those....

Have u heard..when u marry the guy ur marrying his family???...well thats 100% true...dont know this is the only thing i dont think i have control over...gurls if the guys mother is mean to u from the first day...run run as fasttt as u can cuz she will get u if she can;)....advice NO staying with the man after marrige with his family a BIG NO NO......try keep low with the family...;) better safe than sorry

Has to feel u not just see how u look but see whats going on....this prob is a hard to get this is why i left it till last...well i wasnt planning this stuff but this is how it got it...i can make this list longer...maybe i will later;)....

So as u can see ive got expectations....but hey no harm in dreaming:P.....These are some of the reasons why im putting off marriage in my mind..As most people know me they say yeah she wanst to get married...but im the MOST one scared of it....from reasons such as dont want to fali at it and get depressed ..dont wanna feel like things r the way they are but in reality they r not....the most thing i fear is....the person changes...when this happens everything chnages and thats not always good (specially when u dont plan it:P)...u know ive learnt one thing in this life though....people dont actuly chnage..they r the way they are but u dont seem to notice it...cuz sometimes i blank out the bad points about someone cuz u think thats it they luv me they cant do that to me! but the fact is....they luved u thats why they might do that to u...so a lil adivice be safe;)


Why do u sometimes feel lost or confused or hurt or feel like ur really mad for no reason...or somethings or people from the past come into ur mind and ur suddenly hurt again?...i just cant begin to explain to anyone how much negative energy i have been giving out to this world...some can say im moody yes thats true...but why does that have to deal with something thats happened in sucha long time ago, which doesn't have any real significance to my life right now on this day...i just think and think and drown myself with thoughts, which just later on make me wanna kill some poeple who have hurt me the way they did!...i dont know whats up with this world or myself....talking about it here really helps i mean i can say what i want when i want!....i just wish there was a machine that can make me go back in time and change somethings that i did or been with people that didnt really deserve the time...or what wud be cooler is this machine where when u start feeling bad it sucks all that out and makes u feel happy and makes ur forget....if we had that i guess noone would be normal and people wud all be happy thier way or another...just the thought makes me wanna get this "imaginy machine" am i insane..? i believe so but i also agree that everyone has a crazy side of them...that ticks them off and makes them go insane...and im sure 100% that humans hurt humans and thats the way it goes....till the end of time......

Just woke up...

My fasting day are over i start uni tommorw..i feel quite good and sooo ready to start working hard again...i will try sooo hard not to forget to log on my blog....(heyyyy i like that)....thinking what i might do today to finsish off ym summer hoilday..."now summer hoilday is soo far awayyyyyyyyy...tarn tarn(music fades away)" tears shadow my face..."ill be lonley for one more year till my lovely summer comes my way....."

13 September 2005

My mini....

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This is such a cute car...

More than good lyrics..

Name: More Than Words
Artist(s): Extreme

Sayin' I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say it, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cause I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two?
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away?
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
(la di da, blah di da da dada)
More than words
(lad di da da di da)
Now that I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cause I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two?
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away?
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
(la di da da di da di da da da)
More than words
(la di da da di da di da da da)
More than words
(la di da da di da di da da da)
More than words
(la di da da di da di da da da)
la di da da da da
More than words
Ooooohhhhhhh ooooohhhhhhh
More than.... Words


This is one of my fave songs of all time...theres a new version of it which i wanna d/l :)...serioulsy had great lyrics and great music! i give it 10 outa 10....if u havnt heard it where the hell u been!!!

12 September 2005

Days getting better....

These past few days since i last wrote a post for my blog...things r getting better...im getting up earlier and doing more things in the day...i guess things r just getting back to normal..maybe i was in a phase of small/short depression...seem to get that when theres nothing to do...uni starts this sat..cant wait but im so scared that it will be different !...:) but anyways as my good friend says....change is GOOD....

09 September 2005


These past few days my skys looks black and my life is so dull. I feel lost i dont know what it is but im not just me...there is something wrong but i have no idea what it is..i slept today alot and i keep sleeping specially when ive got nothing to do and im bored...my mind feels like its in a state or boredom...sleeping is the only place where i feel like i can relax my head hurts from all the thoughts that pass by in my mind all the time...im such a worryer wish i cud chill for one day at least.....what to do ....what to do...when ur life feels empty and nothing else to do...

Feeling like ur under threat....

Did anyone ever feel like the internet opens doors to bad places and people!? that the internet wasnt that "safe" and friendly place you thought you could not find yourself being yourself...Alot of us choose to hide our real identies online, not share out pictures with people whom we have never met..or will never, choose to hida our true inner beauty and feelings and thoughts becuz of what "could" happen....im one of those people i guess bad experience can be somewhat scary....The risk isnt as small as anyone can think!...anyways Be safe people:)

My sleeps messed!

I woke up around 3-4am today slept at around 6pm the day be4....my sleeps messed what to do what to do...hopefully today i can officially fix it:)...nothing much is happening in my life apart from me getting a car soon(Inshallah)...lifes good i guess but theres this feeling inside of me which is making me worrying...dont u hate it when this happens???...damn wish i cud fix it...

08 September 2005

My no...

Your Expression Number is 8
Driven and ambitious, you have the potential to reach great things.You're both good with money and good at getting things done quickly.You are an excellent leader and a great judge of character.
Full of energy and confidence, you undertake projects that seem impossible.Dependable and determined, you are able to understand the bigger picture.Even if you are not in a position of power right now, it will fall to you.
At times, you can be very materialistic - and obsessed with status and power.While this isn't always a bad thing, you sometimes take it to the extreme.In order to be truly happy, you must balance the material and spiritual in your life.

04 September 2005

I've been tagged!

I've been tagged by my wonderful frined blasha!.. thanks sweetie so here it goes:

Last book you read: Men are from mars, women are from venus.
Last phone number you called: my friends!
Last show you watched on TV: The simple life...i think thats what its called!
Last thing you had to drink: Necafe
Last thing you ate: lunch..i think
Last time you cried: As i recall prob 2 days ago..usually i cry everyday!:Psad eh!
Last time you smiled: Todays while chatting to an old friend
Last person you hugged: my mum and sis(miss ya sis)
Last person you talked to on the phone: my Coz
Last thing you smelled: My coffee
Last CD that you bought: I think it was linkin park...
Last song you sang: BSB dont ask me whyy!! lol and maybe many moore-only hope
Last thing you laughed at:My comments that i gave to my frined while chatting to her..sometimes i dont relise what im saying
What's in your cd player/changer: doesnt work now i used my ipod itrip;) great thing
What time did you wake up today: Ive been waking up and sleeping and getting up then sleeping ill say the last time was 7pm.
Current favorite article of clothing: i dont really have one but i like topshop..its simple but great place
Favorite place to be: At home in my room alone:)
Least favorite place: anywhere away from kuwait! i luv it here
Do you believe in an afterlife? yeah kinda.
In Heaven or Hell: i cudnt really say but i guess in hell! we all must pass there sometime hopefully heaven too:).
How tall are you: oh me:S..im about 155cm i think!! 5'5 pretty short well not tall that is:P
Current favorite word: hmmm thinking about this one!...
Favorite Book: i guess i cud say~i dont know right now!
Random lyric: "i'll always remember, it was late afternoon, it lasted forever and ended so soon....mandy moore ! hmm maybe the last part if wrong!
Are you a daredevil? me!? no way! im a worrywart
Have you ever told a secret you swore you'd never tell? we r all human;).
Do looks matter? yeah at some point but not everything i look at.
How do you release your anger? shouting and getting things off my chest or talk to someone who knows how to calm me down;) and lets me forget.
My second home is: The place i luv hangin out in....BL
One thing i have that i wish i didn't is: Usually i hate the fact i care so much and sensitive and worry alot!...also im moody:S wish i was a free spirit that lived each day as it came andnot worry about anything too much!...
All you need is: Someone who understands me..well at least copes with me and my mood swings
Something I want but I don't really need is: hmm i cud say car! but yet again i need it...i guess my own comp
Something I need but I don't really want is: A a close friend...i dont trust people cuz i dont trust myself.

*do you...*
drink? of course noo...
have a boyfriend/girlfriend? .....
have a dream that keeps coming back? yeah i always dream things that keep coming up
believe there is life on other planets? ahaa! we r not alone( dum dum dum..sound effects).
read the newspaper? no way! i hate reading news and watching is depresses me!
consider yourself tolerant of others? if i correctly understod this i wud sayyy not really
consider police a friend or foe? i dont know i think they think they have power over us instead of trying to protect us ..so foe(enemy).

I'm tagging: Snookie and A.J.Q( but i think u did this!)

Another blog thingy

Your Rising Sign is Capricorn

Old fashioned and conservative, you carry yourself with dignity.
You have a tough exterior, and you can be intimidating when you want to be.

Hard working and ambitious, you can survive in the most cut throat work enviroments.
Outside of work, you are a true friend to everyone in your small inner circle.

You may have had a difficult time earlier in life.
Capricorns are late bloomers and you may be coming into your own right now.

What is Your Rising Sign?

A lil advice...

Moving on doesn't mean forgetting it means u having to accept the fact things rn't the way u want them to be and for u to be happy for where u are at, right now!..things always happen for a good reason never forget that!..plus...dont let anyone who hurt u get in the way with ur happiness ...and give urself a chance...
the problems have not started yet...ull relise that when u have kids...LOVE isnt everything...love doesnt mean everything in the sense that ull know when that person means it it shows with things like them being there for u, forgiving u...being honest, trustful and most of all sticking by u when u need them most...ull all grow with time and pain ..i did...dont forget beauty isnt everything just be thankful that ur healthy thats the best gift u cud ever have(except for a dogde viper:P JK)....life is short u never know when ur time is up...always smile and don't let lil things ruin ur mood :) PS do something useful with ur time( life reading my BLOG JK!!!!)

This is funnny...

Your Brain is 80.00% Female, 20.00% Male

Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?
thats the link but check out what it says...am i??:S

Hard Rock!....

Yesterday i went to hardrock to celebrate withmy cozs becuz it was her bday! Man i luv that restruant as u guys must know im a hugeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee fan of guitars and luv them so much i wish i cud buy hardrock and live there!...lol the food was good service was good but what was weird is the place was empty so u didnt feel the normal busy and loud music and messy atmosphere which is cool...instead we had a relaxing dinner:)..anyways ill post the pics i took of this place...if u havent been there ur missing out on alot;)...its like ur not in kuwait!

03 September 2005

The day is young...

It's 8:35 am and im still up since yesterday at 6pm!...I went to the airport with my bro and was amazed about how the world is changing....people are certainly coming out!....Sometimes i question has something happened to the world or are we some what different....i guess only one knows the answer. It will take time for me to relieze that each day things evolve the same way we learn and gorw each new day....just hope the best comes out with everything good in place...

01 September 2005


Today was a normal day just went out to marina mall and watched a nice movie...it was called steath something like that:) action movie!....i dont usually like an action movie but i was glad there was a lil romance in it! it wasnt bad i enjoyed it!...love the movies...;) how was ur day??